I had a photo shoot over the weekend. Minutes before we left for the shoot, I told my roommate, I couldn’t do it. I understood how important it was to me and this “brand” that we are creating but I felt terribly insecure.
How do you allow yourself to be in front of a camera when you are not holistically comfortable with your body. I battled with it the entire day and finally decided to go through with it. I went because uncomfortable situations will never get comfortable unless you continue to put yourself in them.
I’m Chinatown with what feels like a million people around me. I’m in front of the camera and I freeze. In my defense, this is my first time. My poses are clumsy and awkward. I can’t figure out where to put my hands! I was not only uncomfortable, I was embarrassed.
The photographer said to me “there is no going back” it was the wake call I needed. This is the start to something. I’m feeling all motivated and ready to take on the world.
Life is about ups and downs so naturally moments later I heard a few things that attempted to knock me off my high horse.
I often say be careful who you discuss things with, good or bad, because misery loves company. As I approach this some what impossible dream, I’m very sensitive about my stuff. I don’t mind criticism, that’s obviously how I’ll learn and grow.
But many times the people closest to you don’t understand what you are trying to accomplish. It hurts the most coming from them but its not for them to understand. Greatness is often misunderstood. I encourage you to pursue whatever it is you would like to, wholeheartedly!
I might fall on my face but it’s my face! I have nothing to loose and everything to gain.
A Woman in Process